For some reason I recently got problems with the CGTalk portfolio. It seems that pretty often my images are not displayed and right now I can't upload any new works - because whenever I do so the page will be blank, and there will also be no preview shown.

Does anyone else have this problem? o_O
Could you guys help me somehow....? XD

I once painted a man who was imprisoned into his own world, maybe not even realizing it, the roots of his own being bound him, while he did not want to stay. And while people usually feel loved and wanted into their own world everything he touched would vanish. In fact, he had no arms, because all that he had was a large extension to his body, such as a spear that would impale all that came close to him.
Not too long ago I have found such a man. Looking at him made me want to nail his face to a photograph. He did stare back so I was left with no choice but to talk to him again. I said what are you up to this weekend? He said nothing, actually. Will you give me your number?
And that's what I did. We wrote a few notes., back and forth. He said he needs a model for one of his photographic projects. Though we in theory just know each other in person for around 48 hours, he'd want me to do it.
I'll model for you, I said, I'll model for you if you model for me. That's fine, he said. We took some photos of me at my place. Transferring the pictures that he had made with my Canon EOS 30D made me find this painting again. I looked at it for a moment.
Actually I cannot remember if it was him whom I thought of as I painted it, but it felt just right.
Come over here, I said. He approached. This is you, I said. He looked at it. That's amazing, he said. Then you shall have it, I said. Cause this is you.
Yes, this is me.

We'll see how my photos of him turn out. Eventually I'll manage to nail him how I have envisioned it in front of my inner eye.

Berlin:
ver.di is on strike. Vor Berlin that means no buses, no subway. For me that means alone 26 kilometers to get to art academy. By now at least the trains of the German train service are still running, but they will also be on strike from monday on which means kinda isolation eh? And yesterday that also meant 13 kilometers by bike for me because the trains were so full that I couldn't get myself and the bike squeezed in.
I navigated my way with the help of the train station plan and buildings like the wings of Potsdamer Platz, Hauptbahnhof, Bundestag & Reichstag, Brandenburger Tor, Siegessäule, Tiergarten, Gedächtniskirche - kinda inside city tour. I've never been there by bike before.
And two times the old lady played bad on me. First the front tire fell out of its holding (WTF?) which I luckily got quickly readjusted, then a few kilometers later the chain jumped out of its holding and made me fumble for some minutes until I was able to resume my way with dirty hands.
Because the trains were so helplessly overflooded - same for streets and sidewalks - I finally decided to at least make my way through to Savigny Place. I couldn't drive that fast but after an hour or so I finally reached Westkreuz (Westcross train station xD) and got myself squeezed into the train finally. My God... and unfortunatly my friends live so far away that we won't be able to see each other when the strike spreads out over all of the city. The forest and around 20 kilometers seperate us - and we got no running bikes. Also my hun lives at the other site of the city so there are around 50 kilometres which seperate us now. Uh! All contacts stay in contact through internet and phones by now... and only by that.
And on top of all that it was snowing and windy so the cold that was just kindly knocking my door for the past days saw this as chance to break through and throw me into bed for the past 48 hours.
Ouch. Must resume working....!



Speaking about work: http://www.comicbookresources.com/n...em.cgi?id=13257
In theory I am not allowed to show my work on Zenescope's Piper comic yet BUT Comic Book Resources has written an article about it and there you can see pages which were colored by Nei Ruffino and me. Obviously our names aren't mentioned, way to go...

Do you want to know some blahblah about my "career"? As Zenescope announced their need for colorists I sent some test pages over to them and actually managed to get the job - eventhough I thought that I probably wouldn't make it because I had some problems to get it all finished in time and because my style looks different as soon as I do comic coloring which may not be as they expected.

But I got it and now I am most busy to get the first 23 pages done until the deadline ends. Luckily there will be more time next month but right now I just hope that we get it all finishd in time!

Wish me luck!
Oh and I might be able to post some previews soon but please don't wonder about the style changes eh..

By the way, why am I angry that my best friend had sex with my ex boyfriend?
Because I know that he wanted to turn my friends against me and he said she was hard to break because she is one of my most "loyal" friends. So you do what? Play temptation on her!
And she wears the pink glasses right now so there's no chance to tell her. I so hate when that happens... the poor girl!
Not to mention that I feel a bit betrayed by her now, too, cause what she told me in the past doesn't meet up with her current behaviour...

Or else, is it really in humans nature to just look for someone sothat you can have sex or are not alone? And then you tell him you love him but short after that you already love someone else in order to be "not alone"?! And does this justify to insult someone as soon as he doesn't do exactly what you want - because he still has his own will?
I am totally confused right now!

Saturday night, I sit at the train station, listening to some Jamiroquai music, as I recognize a man yell at me. I turn my head and so the volume down.

YOU ARE THE REASON WHY I SUFFER!"

Yeah sure.... Tis guy mad?

I take a look around to see if there is a train around which I could take to get away from here. Plan, train, plan. Okay this should work.
I am not the devil, though some people might sometimes think I am and so dare to make me responsible for WHATEVER bullshit recently happens in their life.
Whatever, I hit the button.
The doors slowly open, his bottle of beer crashes inside the trains side next to me, the sherds slip over the stoney ground. He obviously missed. I step inside and the doors close, he stands there and yells, I stare back at him.

Crazy man, you. Go and look for another pink haired woman with a black dress, I'm outta here, sheesh!



Watching Cloverfield in cinema the same day seemed to make the couple besides me kinda horny. Though they were double my age, I could bet, they started to plaied the piano on each other after 30 minutes of the movie had passed.

And you thought I am the devil?

How can you get horny while seeing people die?

The movie ends, he closes his pants - at leats they made no noise. Now I knew FOR SURE that I wasn't mistaken on what was going on and they obviously seemed to like the fact that I could theoretically seeing whilst what they were doing.

Hello?! And if you say something they would just grin at you, bah. I wish I had made sure what was going on earlier, before the lights turned on. But in case I'd be mistaken, and they wouldn't be playing on each other I would have looked like dumb when saying something.
And at least they made no noise but - bwah!

Next time I'm gonna smack them with my popcorn bag Jesus Christ, people are MAD!

I got a couple of Pina Colada after this cinematic stay and then tried to jump on my best friend, but smashed him by mistake - lucky me poor him...... but after 6 hours of babbling we at least managed to sleep for around 3 hours and get our brains clear again... or so... XD

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This was a joke. Besides all the "piano" playing I was really hooked up by Cloverfield. I love filming documentary stuff myself and so I was totally sucked into it. I also loved how they managed to make the military look so authentic. Sadly none of the critiques mentioned that yet. I t was all CG is shit as always blahblah crap, eventhough I loved the CG, because I found it very convincing, but who listens to the blueblack pink haired woman anyways?